Sunday, May 21, 2023
My Mark, My Husband,
We got 11+ years together...i always told you that "At best...life is too short & don't have enough time enjoy the ones we love or get to do all we want to do....At best." I am so grateful for our time...but it wasn't enough.......... . I still can't believe you're not here. No one can believe you're not here. I keep waiting for you to come through the door wanting to know what I've fixed to eat...you're hungry. Life with you was an adventure. Some people know how to live, some only know how to survive. You, my Sweetheart, You knew how to live. There was nothing ordinary about you. You taught me things that I would have never learned from anyone else. You pushed me to be more, to be better, when I thought I couldn't, you would tell me that you knew I could, then you would show me how. I hope I enriched you as much as you enriched me. We were an excellent team Mark. We were good together.
We had alot of fun along the way, acquired alot of good things, found some lasting friends. I loved life with you Mark. We laughed, well you did, when I got my car stuck in the mud out beside our house & you posted pics on fb, you were so pleased with yourself & finally told me what you'd done...it was funny.
We laughed, kinda & much later, when the fridge fell off the trailer that rainy night. that actually was pretty awful. We laughed going to Duck Creek late at night on the four wheeler, dressed in our carharts because snow was on the ground. We laughed when you got the unicow on planet moolah & won $700+ We fought hard but we loved harder. There's a space in my heart that's etched in the shape of you. you're the only one that fits in the space. Words have not been created to describe to you how much I miss you, the raw pain in my heart is more than I can bear Tears fall everyday. Kimber looks for you everyday, she searches every man's face for you. I'm not ok without you Mark. I know I have to be, you expect nothing less. I didn't want you to leave .I now need you to show me how to live without you. Walk me through this. I will never get over this. The pain is being etched too deeply in me. Part of me went with you that early morning when you left here. Walking away from you & leaving you there was unbearable, knowing you'd never walk beside me again. I've never know this type of pain before, I don't know how to handle it, what to do with it or how to get through it.
I Love You Mark Seymour, with every part of me, I Love You Your Girl.......Gaile... .
